emusic sucks

I should have figured - 35 free downloads when you sign up and I can't find 35 I want to download. what a waste of time

Random Road Thoughts

This car is old - I don't have an mp3 player plug or even a cd player
I can't wait until cars can drive themselves - they can already parallel park themselves - can't they?
I'm bored
That guy was totally digging for gold - I mean I just saw him for a second and he dug like 3 times!
I like when Moe drives - then he can listen to NPR all he wants & I can sleep
I saw a cab driving on the freeway from Willard to past Tremonton - random
The Molly Ringwald character has a little bit of Catherine Linton - being all societal yet digging the rebel
Oh no! I just got a rock chip
I love to sing out loud DRAMATICALLY - it makes people smile (because they think I'm a dork)
There is really no way to jam to classical music - how sad
How could Patty not know who Abraham (from the Bible) was? Seriously - she thought he was Jesus's son.
Maybe if I go around the entire radio dial enough then I'll find something decent to listen to

A little bit of Cathy (and maybe Heathcliff) in all of us

When I first read Wuthering Heights I didn't like it. It was dark, I felt confused, and I wasn't sure I'd read it again.

This time I realized that the main reason I didn't like it was because of Catherine.

I hated how she was so fickle and at times appeared two-faced. "I like Heathcliff. No, I like Edgar. No Heathcliff is really the one for me. " "I want to be a proper society woman." "No, I don't care what people think." "I want a stable and financially sound life" "No, I just want to run away." etc.

But I realized that maybe we all have a little bit of Catherine in us. Sometimes we like to follow the rules: go to church, be proper, go for the "safe and reliable" guy. Sometimes we just want to scream because the properness is suffocating us. Sometimes we want to run away to nature, escape the structure that society has placed on us, and of course run to the arms of the dark and handsome rebel.

Recently I wished that I could abandon the society that I am in. I am tired of trying to be the typical wife. I am tired of what is expected of me. I am frustrated that I don't get as much help as I would like.

Two things are keeping me in check: Buddy and the promises I have made.

Not that there is a Heathcliff in my life (for which I am glad - I don't like greasy, hairy, weird guys). I am just tired of feeling the suffocation that is coming from being tied down to this life.

So I guess I should cut Catherine some slack. The grass does seem greener on the other side sometimes.